Why I am here

I began writing poetry at an early age after my dad passed away, he died on my 11 birthday, to use poetry to get over a lot of obstacles in my life have helped me through many hard times ...

I have struggled with crippling social anxiety for 10 years and locked me inside my own shell, it took me sooo long to work my way up from the dark place I thought was so safe and sound ...

Apart from depression and anxiety, I've got a lot thrown at me in her lap through time, two years ago I was diagnosed with endometriosis (rare disease that women are incredibly painful at times)

In January this year I was admitted to the rheumatology department, where I was then diagnosed with fibromyalgia and MSS (muscle pain syndrome) this is very painful but something I have to learn to live with this too ..

This blog contains my poems I have written throughout the ages, this has become my way to overcome sadness and dark times ...

I use both good and bad to create something out of and this helps me to look ahead in life ..

So no matter what gets thrown into the lap of me so I'm a fighter I am stubborn and do not give up until I reach my goals, so now you know a bit who I am and why I'm here ..

COPYRIGHT! All poems, pictures that are posted on this page is not allowed to copy or take them as your own, please respect this .. Regards Melissa

Friday, March 18, 2011

True Love

It's the middle of the night, and i am still awake, my mind is filled with thoughts,
in this time and in this hour i sit down and write these lines, its raining outside and its silent, not a sound
not a word to be spoken only the thoughts inside my head.
The sky is black and the ground its wet not a star in sight, what has happen to this world?
It use to be filled with happiness,hope,faith and love, now its filled with despair,hate,grief and sadness..
The beautiful flower lost its color and the petals are falling off one by one, it's not time to sit think about what this world
have become, but i can't help it.. It have been so much turning against me lately and i think im about to lose my shape, color and beauty, what is a human worth in this world without a smile to show?


It's like the world has devoured us completely and all that's left is shame, and hateful words... It's hard to survive in this
world and you can't wear your smile without fighting for it.. If it was not for love we all would be devoured by hate,greed and the world would go under in a blink of an eye.. Why are we here on earth? what is our purpose? That is a question we never get an answer for... Why we were placed on this earth to suffer and not knowing what for...
Seasons change winter to spring and days fly by so fast and we grow old in the end, so after we leave this world where do we go? Is it a place called heaven? is it a place called hell?


I wonder were we will end.. Maybe life is a test to see if we are strong enough to overcome our fears, and to learn how to love? And when we die maybe thats the paradise we all are longing for? It's in the middle of the night and i can't get to sleep too many thoughts running through my head.. Some i may never find the answer to, but i will live like the sun will never rise tomorrow, i will smile like i have never smiled and i will love you to the end of time, because without you in my life i would never learn to appreciate the smiles, happiness and love, i would only walk around with my eyes closed and my heart empty. Thank you for showing me what true love is, and let me vanish in your kiss, for without each other we would be alone and alone we would never find true love!

Written By Melissa
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